My current work situation is perfect for me. Realistically, I won't find anywhere better. My company is a small family business which has a unique "learn as you go" approach to things. What that means is that I'm given the leeway to learn how to do tasks I'm assigned to and as long as it works in the end (I do the IT bits of the business) that's good enough for them. This won't fly with any other company.
Over the past year I've found myself falling for my coworker. She's 100% straight. We talk everyday, text everyday, we sometimes even meet up on weekends to go for coffee despite already seeing each other 5 days a week! A few months ago, we went on a 2.5 week trip to bloody Australia together with her tween son. That's how close we are.
Nobody suspects a thing and this will almost definitely come out wrong but I look straight so despite most in the office knowing that I'm gay, our relationship comes across as us being very close friends.
Today I put in my 2 months notice because I can't move on with my life when I see her everyday. I told her I'm taking a short break before finding something else because I feel like there's nothing much for me to do at work (true) and I want something more challenging/meaningful (false). I know it's stupid. I'm 35 years old ffs. I guess I'm not asking for advice, just needed to let this out somewhere.