How to come to terms with this?

[Finlandia]

After yet another falling out with my long term partner I am starting to think none of my 3 serious male partners have ever really loved me. In fact I’m wondering if I’ve sort of bullied or persuaded them into being with me.
my issue is this - it seems clear to me by DP doesn’t really like me. I think it’s over. I have been through a lot of therapy to deal with this but I’m now in my 60s and I think having to accept that I will never have a partner is my life who loves or even likes me. I have friends and siblings who love me but if I am honest I would love to feel really special to a partner.
has anyone been through this?

I have many questions. How do you think that you have bullied them to be with you? Do you really think that has happened with 3 partners or do you think you are being hard on yourself? Surely there were times within the relationship that you felt loved otherwise you wouldn’t have stayed, surely?

I think having someone love the worst parts of us is reserved for a lucky few and for most it’s a fairytale we are told we can have.
In reality we have to show up as someone who is loveable.