I've often read over these topics on mumsnet and never thought I'd end up in this situation, let alone turning to the very place I read about the topic... but here we are.
Apologies for the lengthy one.. it appears to be the only place to rant as it has become increasingly impossible to talk to DH.
This year I have felt like me and my husband have drifted apart, but even more so lately. I can't think of the very moment it started to happen, but it is definitely a combination of things that has made it feel so.
Resentment is definitely the number one reasoning on my list. I'm full of it. I feel like I am the person who is balancing pretty much everything. I wont go into detail because again.. lengthy.
As mentioned before, its become impossible to talk to him. Even just a simple conversation is like getting blood out of a stone. I may as well message him over the phone to get a conversation because thats where his eyes are most of the time.
Intimacy is not a thing anymore. He has tried a few times but im honestly so mentally checked out that I just cringe at the thought. Even just a kiss is enough for me. Just writing that makes me feel awful.. but this is what it has come to.
Lately I keep repeating "I'm always last on the list" because thats exactly how I feel. There's no consideration for me whatsoever. He has become quite selfish and im truly fed up.
We have a daughter who is 4 years old so our time together is not how it used to be, but there's no even attempt to find time together.
On the weekend after she goes to sleep, all he wants to do is play his PlayStation. He always says "i won't go on it if you don't want me to" but I just want him to NOT want to. Maybe just make time for me without me needing to ask... which is also a common thing.
One thing that truly frustrates me is "all you needed to do was ask" but why should I be asking? If im struggling to cook tea and he sees that.. why should I ask? Why not just want to help me?
Anyway, thank you for reading this story 😂 but I guess im hoping for someone to offer some advice? Maybe tell me that this too shall pass? Or what on earth am I to do when I feel like such a stranger in our marriage?