I have started previous threads. I have been in a toxic dynamic now for years and I’m basically in a mess. I asked him to leave the home we rented a few years back and then because I felt lonely and sad and pathetic went back a few months later when we lived separately. I am an apparently educated woman and I have put up with so much. I don’t know if I’m coming or going anymore. The last few days have been absolutely horrendous. Vile vile messages as I wanted to cut contact for good. Threats. Being called a cunt, a bitch, useless, fat. I have an appt with the police tomorrow. I am scared. I am so scared of any potential escalation. I am scared social services will become involved (I have a lovely son who thankfully isn’t his and hasn’t been exposed to the majority of this: he is my ex husbands child and has a great relationship with him) I feel weak. I feel pathetic. I am in my 40s and I am so lost. My mental health for the last few years has been very shaky and I am so scared it will now break. Please please can someone give me any guidance or advice here without judgement. I know I’m stupid believe me.