In the great scheme of things this is nothing compared to what others ar going through. You can see the background via my old threads but I ended a relationship with someone I adored in early August.
We only dated for 2 and a bit months but he was my first since my divorce. (Ex H left 2021 and divorced 2023)
My recent ex was such a sweet damaged guy, not conventionally good looking, short and charismatic and charming. Turns out he is probably drinking way too much and I suspect has a coke habit. But functioning with work.
He lit me up all summer. Electric sex, sunny nights out, dancing and he adored me. Or seemed to. Love bombing really.
In the end I had to end it because my anxiety/nervous system was screaming at me.
I'm having counselling and was already on SSRI anyway.
I did have one date last weekend and I'd have seen him again but he didn't feel it with me. I've tried the apps again and was asked out twice for real life dates but I just cannot do it.
Nothing comes close to the excitement I felt.
I'm trying hard to wean myself off from checking my Ex bfs socials. I know that every time I do it, it prolongs the withdrawal.
I know it was wrong..I know he was an addict with avoidance.
But I wish he'd leave my headspace and I could move on.
Any tips?