Hey
ive been with my partner for a year we live together and our engaged
I’m struggling with his lack of attention towards me
on a whole he looks after me financially and supports me as I moved abroad to be with him and gave up my job and life
but it’s not materialistic things he thinks he can just give me and I’m happy it’s affection and passion I want which he is cold as ice
i don’t regret moving abroad and when we get on we get on really well but I feel we’re more friends than lovers
weve argued a lot about him being cold and he said he’s always been cold which ok fair enough but I ain’t I’m more spontaneous and love passion
sometimes when I say give us a kiss or try to start something off he replies kiss me normal and pecks me on the lips and refuses to snog me yet before we would snog for hours so intense
he’s always trying to make me jealous a lot lately which is babyish in my eyes and mind games yet if I say something wrong oh he’s the most jealous man out there always gotta get one up on me
hes also got 2 kids one of which is 18 and I’m constantly washing their clothes and plates I get no help around the house
i do everything for him and his family and I’m starting to wonder why
for what
i feel I’m being taken for granted now and feel like everything I do what you can’t show me abit of passion and love
im questioning if I stay or go
he won’t change I left before because he decided he wanted space to than move back to my country to be bombared with textes and begging me back when he saw me getting on with my life and not being so bothered
he promised to change and he did oh he was brillant for a month or two but now it’s gone back to being like friends again
i I don’t know what to do
hes making me insecure and sound desperate and needy
I love him so it’s going to be harder than last time when we did break up and months have passed on since than and I’m use to him it’s scary to move back and start all over again tho I did do it before I guess
but I don’t know if I can accept this life as it’s really upsetting me being here
i feel like Cinderella at times cleaning up to be ex knowledge with a peck on the lips on a evening and sex only when he wants it or I get told no I’m tired
what do I do I don’t know I’m bashing my head against a brick wall
I wish it would work but I don’t seem him changing unless I leave and he realises what he’s lost but I can’t do that every few months for the rest of our lifes
what a mess