I know this will sound pathetic and if I could control it I would. I split with my ex a good few years ago. I've been completely single since then with no dating at all. Recently I've really started to miss him even though he isn't a good person and he doesn't bother with our children so yes I know that makes me a pathetic person. I keep having dreams about him and craving my old life with him as I am so lonely. I never expected I'd be sat in alone every single night until my children are young adults. I miss him (well the thought of him and my old life) and have to stop myself from reaching out to him. Everyone says it's gets better but it doesn't. I imagine what he is up to, out having fun and dating whilst I'm sat alone every night taking care of the children. Has anyone ever felt this way and what helped?