I am 33f, single since late April and that was my third major relationship that ended and I am done having my heart broken. I joined Hinge and Bumble and went on a few fun dates with a handful of nice men these last few months, but the chemistry either wasn't there or went away (on my part). The rest of the conversations were lack luster and I found myself swiping left 99% of the time.
I deleted all the apps this morning. I am just done trying. If I meet/talk to a man somewhere out there, cool, if not, I need a break.
I am still extremely lonely. The mornings are tough with no "Good morning babe" check ins. I miss having someone to joke with. I miss having someone to text your random little happy moments throughout the day. I miss a lot of things about a relationship. But I don't miss him.
I am still very hopeful about finding my husband, but I am leaving it on him to figure it out because after 3 major heart breaks, your girl is tired and DONE.
(I did match with a nice man on Hinge, and we're texting back n forth very sporadically.... he lives 4 hours, has driven out here to see me once, I have flown to his city for a business reason and seen him once... we are planning me flying out there again soon one of these weekends... its hopeful but my hopes are not too high on this one lol)