I had a really good thing going on with a guy. I had an awful relationship and haven't had one since meeting this new person so I really struggle to say how I feel and I dont like creating tension even if I feel upset. After seeing him a few times I realised he had an awful relationship too and only opened up a small amount. Doesn't discuss feelings, minimal contact after meeting each other, but when we were together it was amazing. We had a disagreement we tried to rekindle and it fizzled out, I tried to reach out through a text and I realise I didn't word it in the best terms as to how I actually felt.
It's been on and off for months because I know we both suffer from previous experiences and trust etc. In simple terms I wanted to know where I stood, but he dismissed me and would avoid speaking to me.
I stupidly couldn't express my feelings clear enough. It's not love but would have liked to have got to know him better and I feel the more I talk about feelings he backs off even more, so he decided it was best I move on.
I think deep down he suffers really bad with mental health and I would like to help him see that without being pushy or feel like im pressuring him to see me or stay in contact which isnt how i want him to feel. I'm also worried if i message it may cause more upset but I couldn't never read him sometimes. So I guess I'm asking do I let it be or reach out. I hope I've wrote this in a way that gets my point across, I really do struggle how to express my point, is it really just something better left unsaid