Hello,
I am in am emotionally abusive relationship and sometimes physical. I want to leave with my child but am terrified. He has told me many times that I would never get custody, telling my sister in law he can’t leave because he can’t leave our son with me as I am an incompetent mother. I have at times lashed out at him, pushed him or slapped his chest, I have also screamed at him when my child is in the house, I’m not proud of this but it has been out of exhaustion, constantly been told you are useless and look terrible and demeaned and belittled in front of my son. He has been violent with me many times. And has put massive pressure on sex , and tried to force a blowjob by holding my nose so I open my mouth, after I killed him off he slapped me and called me a bitch, after that he left , and when I told it was assault he said I was mad and needed help. He said I should go to the police and no one would believe me anyway. He is clever and I think he has recorded me when I have lost it, out of context it will look like I’m crazy. He twists and changes things that have happened and invalidates anything I say by saying I am crazy, everyone knows there is something wrong with you and I need to get help. I feel more and more hopeless and can’t see a way out