This could be a long one but I feel like I need some support now. Everything seems to have happened at once and I feel like my head is going to explode.
Firstly, my dad called to let me know that his cancer has spread from his prostate to his bones. Then my mum had a fall in the bath and laid for 2 days before she was found - she stayed in hospital overnight and is ok now. I’m still in recovery from surgery but getting stronger every day.
My boyfriend is currently on holiday with family and I’m at his house looking after his dog. I found out on Friday that he had been creeping around girl’s Facebook profiles, all around the time I was in surgery and recovering. I don’t think he’s actually met anyone as I’ve been at his house the entire time (we don’t live together). When I confronted him about it he was so angry, he said I was being pathetic and that it was my “own fucking fault for looking”. He has alcohol issues, is toxic, aggressive and manipulative and when I called him out on all of that he was raging and blocked me.
It’s obviously over, I can never trust him again. I’m at his house until Monday (it’s not the dog’s fault he’s an arsehole) and he’ll return around 1am Tuesday morning. I just feel incredibly sad that it’s come to this and that he’s done this at a time when I’ve genuinely needed support. I’m clearly not enough and feel like my self esteem has been crushed.
How do I move on and feel better? I absolutely do not want him back.