Hi, it’s been around a year I ended a relationship that was on and off for 5 years. It was always off because of him and I loved him deeply but he was toxic. After giving him one last chance I could see nothing was going to change. After I ended it he got back with his ex but still spend months begging me to give him a chance. It’s been around 7 months since he finally give up and I’ve been so much happier and I’m finally free. But over last few days all of it’s hit me and I’m angry and sad at the time wasted.
I thought I was much better then today a friend rang me I was busy and didn’t answer. Then some one else sent me a message on what’s app and I opened up and panicked because I thought my friend will check on my being on line on what’s app. I checked her what’s app and she hadn’t been online for hours.
it’s took my breath away how panicked I was and it reminded me of him watching my every move. I honestly thought it has all gone away