I need some help understanding what just happened. A bit of backstory, my husband and I have been together since high school and I dont recall him doing anything like this ever. We have 3 kids and im currently pregnant with our 4th. Tonight he came home from hanging out with friends and everything was going great, we ended up falling asleep. I think I stretched and something popped, feeling like I settled more into myself (pregnancy is uncomfortable) I moaned. A few seconds later my husband's arm wrapped around me and I though he was just gonna cuddle me. He started being grabby so I grabbed his hand saying not right now and placing it on my belly. It happened a few more times until he told me im not going to stop until you say yes. I kept saying no still half asleep, I rolled over to face him and tell him no but he ended up on top of me and ended up putting it in. I finally woke up and pushed him off me and said I dont want this and immediately felt unsafe, violated and gross. I ended up crying repeatedly saying I told you no and you kept going. He apologized multiple times, but it didn't sound like it really reached his voice. I asked him to leave the bed and he just ignored that and kept asking how he could make it better and that he was half asleep too. Im now trying to shower this feeling off and gonna go sleep in my daughter's bed while he is sleeping soundly like nothing happened. Did my husband rape me? Or was this a misunderstanding? Like I said before, I dont recall anything like this ever happening.. but I cant deny the feelings of being used, disrespected and violated.. not only that, but something really upsetting just happened and he falls back asleep instead if understanding what happened?! Fhat makes me livid. I dont know how to address this topic with him without laying into him or feeling like im the problem.