Tell me it gets better

[Smithy37]

Just this really…
I left a 12 year marriage at the start of the year after just being unhappy for 8 years and realising I was trying to fit into a mold of someone I was never going to be….I don’t miss him at all…
However, I am crippled on a daily basis with the most severe anxiety. I’m on medication to help me through, but I have the most awful fear of the future. What will it look like..how will I be on my own etc. Some days I feel so low I just don’t know how I manage to get through the days.
i think I just need to hear that everything will eventually start to feel better. I definitely miss the family unit of having someone in the house. I have my beautiful daughter a week on and a week off…and miss her dreadfully when I don’t see her and feel so lonely. But she is so happy and thriving and that brings me peace. But I just wish I could calm this horrific anxiety. I am on meds and beta blockers but nothing seems to be helping. I’m starting therapy on Wednesday next week to try to process all of this…I lost my daughter 12 years ago and don’t think I’ve really processed the at either….i just wondered if I could have a little hand hold please 😥

Sorry you’re going through a bad time OP. I didn’t want to read and run, so hopefully replying will boost traffic. I’m certainly things will get better for you - MN is full of responses saying just that, so I’m sure they’ll be some replies telling you this. I’d suggest being kind to yourself on your weeks with DD at her dad’s - at least one nice thing per day, even little things. Take comfort in the fact she’s doing well too. It sounds like you have a lot to process from the past but it’s still early days in terms of you being separated so probably only natural you’re fearful of the future, but it will all be ok. Good luck with your therapy. 💐

Things like this take time.
You're doing great. You're taking steps and getting help, one day at a time.
Be kind to yourself. You need it and you deserve it.

It will get better eventually. You just have a lot of baggage to work through.