This is really hard for me to write and I'm struggling to find to words to express myself properly but here it goes?..I was diagnosed with PND after DS2 was born in Dec 06. I have been on and off AD's and have been off them now for about 5 months. Things had been going great and I was feeling much better but then MIL moved in with us and things have gone downhill with my relationship since then. DH is such a Mummys boy and I know he loves me but I really feel he would pick her over me anyday. She invited herself to live with us and I let it go because a)she was seeing someone so I thought she'd be at his house a lot b)she was looking for a house with her boyfriend and c) she said it would only be for 6 months. Well 6 months is coming up now and she's showing no signs of moving. She's split up with this guy (it was never really that serious I don't think) and really has made it so she can't afford to get her own place. I have expressed my unhappiness to my DH and he just tells me to 'get over it'. I have asked him to speak to her about the situation and he's too much of a wimp to have the conversation (I would but I've been made out to be a bitch already by her ? I'll explain later). She's told her daughter she's living here FOREVER!! So that's moan number one.
Moan number two is the fact that my MIL is constantly telling people things about me that aren't true. She left her email account logged in one day and so I had a look at her sent mail (naughty I know but I already had my suspicions) and some of the things she has said about me are complete fabrications! It hurts me that she would be so two-faced and say this stuff about me It's got to the point where I can't do right for doing wrong with her and now my SIL's have joined in with her.
Moan three is I told my husband how unhappy I was atm and he was so snappy with me. Even he thinks I'm just being bitchy for the sake of it. An example of this is it's his birthday in a couple of weeks and I booked a surprise meal for us but his sisters arranged a meal for just them, him and MIL (it's her b-day the day before his) on the same night. Didn't ring me to see if I had anything planned, didn't invite me along. So now I'm being difficult apparently??
My other issue is more about me. I don't think I love my kids like I should do. I have already been made to feel like the worlds worst parent but I really don't want to speand any time alone with them or do anything like get them bathed. Don't get me wrong I do love them and would die for them but I just don't feel the need to care for them. Is this still the PND or am I just a last cow like everyone says?