I’ve got a 7 year old from previous relationship who sees his dad a lot
I have a 6 month old with my new partner / ex
we are not living together now and I am safe and the kids. We have our own home
during pregnancy he became very very abusive mentally and emotionally
he has every narcissist trait. He calls me names. He blows hot and cold. One day I’m the best mum ever to the children and the love of his life. The next day he’s calling social services on me because I’m not fit and the courts are gonna see what a mess I am
i am on anti depressants and have been most of my life and he uses it against me and tells me all the time in an “unwell lady”
he always tells me I’m fat since having the baby always tells me I’m ugly and I’m a loser. When I’m tired he tells me he hopes the baby keeps me up all night because it’s what I deserve
he tells me my children hate me and they deserve a better mum
he threatens me all the time with social services and I don’t know why
I am a crumbling mess and he has finally broke me to bits
he wants to see the baby and I haven’t let him for weeks and I’ve explained to him his temper is preventing it because I don’t want him near me and the kids when he’s how he is because I’m scared and he makes me extremely sad.
so of course I get lots of abuse about alienating the father and that the baby will be nothing without his dad etc.
i don’t know what to do.
he calls me a whore / bitch everything. Then he’ll be dead sorry and love me again which I never bileave anymore.
the relationship at the start years ago was amazing. He was perfect. I know this was fake now
anyway. Of course I’ve developed post natal depression because of this
I’m trying so hard. My 7 year old is a happy bubbly full of life boy who tells me he loves me a million times a day. He is my world and he loves his new brother.
I so desperately want to ring women’s aid but I’m scaredy kids will be taken because he talks so badly about me and they might bileave him
I go upstairs and sob into a pillow so kids don’t see and paint my face back on for them.
I’m shaking inside ALL the time.
he’s hit me once but made me feel like it was my fault and I provoked him.
he tells me I’m the problem all the time because of my reactions to his abuse.
when I cry and I’m sad because of what he says to me he tells me my medication is making me not think straight
can’t bileave this is my life with my new baby. I do everything for the baby. I’m so tired.
he says I don’t let him be here and help with baby but how can I when he’s being like this to me
what do I do
ive told my family everything and they just don’t understand it or take my seriously.
Any womanly advice or love would be great right now x