I have been married for 4 years and have a son who is nearly 1.5. I feel like this may be the end of the road as our marriage doesn't feel like a marriage anymore. I feel burnt out, exhausted, under appreciated and under valued. I do everything round the house from cooking and cleaning to the food shopping and taking my son to nursery and different activities and going to work.
My husband works 5 days a week and two days from home, he will watch our son on a weekend either sat or sun when I pick up extra shifts at work but that's about it. I do the nappies, putting him down for naps amongst everything I noted above. Am I being unreasonable in wanting him to show me some appreciation. There is nothing there in terms of affection, love, care just nothing. He's not mean as such but just cold and distant. Im getting tired of it and want out. I've approached him about it more than 10 times over the past few months but everything I get "oh that's what happens when you get married after a while it all dies down" or "this is me I dont show my emotions to people" or "oh all you do is moan about this and moan about that you're never happy". All I want is a hug someday and that's too much to ask. I used to initiate the affection random cuddles here and there and stuff but when its not reciprocated I feel like im throwing myself at him which makes me sick. He's never complimented me, ever, apparently that's not something he does, however he's so quick to point out when someone's wrong with the way i look or what im wearing etc.
I look back at my life before I got married, I was a fun loving bubbly person. I no longer know that person. I'm down all the time feeling insecure feeling like im not worthy of someone to be "nice" to me. We dont even sleep in the same room since his scoring got so bad, but I told him there's things he can do about it not just take his things and sleep on the sofa.
I want to take a break and go away somewhere for a week or so over summer to my sisters abroad or my brothers in wales, but even that will be a show and dance since I can't take our son away for too long as he "gets down on his own" and "he gets into his own head"
Am I exaggerating or is this the way it becomes when you get too comfortable in your roles in a marriage?