I don’t think I’ve ever felt as lonely or as low as I have today.
About a month ago I had a massive argument with my partner. I explained that I was struggling with keeping on top of the house, organising us trying to move house, look after our little one, the mental load of it all and I work as well. All he kept saying was that he was fed up of being treated like shit and it was like as usual he just wasn’t listening to me or processing what I was saying. I told him I was leaving because I’d had enough and just couldn’t take it anymore. He took this as me apparently using our son as a weapon. I never said anything about our little boy and I would never ever stop him from seeing him. In the end I agreed to stay and he did do a-bit more around the house. After this argument, he told me I had broken his heart and that he had sent my engagement ring back (he hasn’t proposed yet and I don’t know if this was a joke). He also told me that he got no emotional support from me when his grandad died. I was in pieces with this comment because I tried my hardest to support him and his family in every way possible.
Fast forward to this weekend, he’s done some things this weekend, that he knows will get a bad reaction out of me. He says he was trying to help but I just can’t get my head around why he would do something that he knows firstly I’ve asked him not to do and secondly he knows will upset and stress me out. I ended up sobbing saying I was exhausted and depressed because of the situation and I can’t carry on like this. I explained that something else I had asked him to do needed to be done and he said he had done it (he hasn’t) and kept telling me it was in my head. Told me he’s been crying non stop since our last argument and that he thought I wasn’t going to do anything for Father’s Day because of our argument. I’m really hurt by this, I’ve never been a spiteful person or done anything like that. I would never not celebrate Father’s Day because we had an argument.
I again told him how ill I feel and the exhaustion and I just said I can’t do it anymore. He just agreed that he couldn’t do it anymore and said we shouldn’t be together. I’ve done everything for this man, bent over backwards to help and support him through whatever. I’m far from perfect but I have done everything again.
I’m heartbroken and I have no family support at all. I’m so hurt by all of his comments, I don’t see anyway of moving past this.