New sex , old boyfriend

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I had a really exciting and experimental passionate relationship with my partner and was looking forward to pursuing a lot further with my partner but he wasn’t able to be fully present for the rest of our relationship and wasn’t always honest,
so I don’t feel he’s a safe space to continue exploring all of that with, especially as we were in love, I don’t know how to go from love to something less committed but at the same time hot l, when we’ve done the commitment thing, s this something anyone has ever successfully transitioned into?
We did try after a recent split and the sex was mind blowing but also so was the aftermath of loving cuddle etc and could feel all the old relationship stuff creep in.
im not desperate to go and find anyone else although would like to maybe explore further same sex relationship as have dabbled in the past and it seems like i think about it a lot, maybe my relationship ending is making space for that ?
I feel like we finished prematurely when it came to sex because the relationship had to end when it did.
in aware i sound quite mixed up but this is why ive come to the experts 🙌🏼

along with dyscalculia
I don’t know what a difficulty doing maths has to do with anything here

Same

It doesn’t just affect maths , the symptoms are far more wide ranging

Weird that most of the other responders were able to answer effectively and supportively.
i appreciate the advice given and am working on it so don’t really need you to‘understand’

I'm not surprised, he sounds like a horrible person. You can find someone else to have amazing sex with who won't make you feel like shit. How old are you, you sound quite young?

Never go back.
People don't change.

I’ll take that as a compliment, if you saw me you wouldn’t say that 🤣
I’m 47 but my disabilities affect me intellectually and emotional maturity and makes me vulnerable to being used because I don’t always screen out the red flags / unspoken stuff.

It’s hard to explain, I appear very together but my mental / emotional and reasoning capacity are often lacking in places where romantic and sexual relationships are concerned and also very vulnerable to being used and drained by fitness and family.

it takes a lot before I realise what’s ’going on’.
and my condition has made it hard to relate to ‘normal’ people so I cling too long to those who aren’t good for me, either because they’re out to use me or because they are dealing with their own challenges

Thank you, I think I’m finally waking up to this one