Just looking for some kind words .
I've had a very up and down relationship with my current partner , lots of hurtful things have been said in our years of being together. Not much has changed , evety month or so another disagreement starts , I don't set out to participate but he says such hurtful things that he leaves me feeling like a different person. My older daughter always gets a mention too ( I feel he's jealous of our relationship and bond ) .
His children are very socially awkward and seem military around him, ( he has 3 ) I get no help around the house from none of them and all are quite lazy although I admit I do everything myself then moan that I'm tired.
I keep a beautiful home and garden, work full time and have a good routine for all children, I've been told im attractive and a well liked person and never had any beef or drama with anyone except him. Even when things are nicer I can't let go what he's said, after any argument we go to bed and he's nice and says its all forgotten and we have sex then the next day he is bothering me all day with his beef towards me . I don't want to forget the good times as we've had 10 good years but it should be smoother and we should only be having occasional fall outs as life is nice. I have no clue what to do I don't want a divorce and font have a clue where to start if I was to leave. My hormones are terrible and erratic and I'm emotional every day pretty much. I'm also permanently shattered with all of this up and down lifestyle plus working full time . Please help with some kind advice . ( also how can I train myself to not respond when he has beef and not take it to heart because I feel it's never meant as he never leaves after all these years - however he never seems genuinely sorry when he sees my tears ) can be very cold but also very kind ...