Hi all. Please can someone give me some advice. My husband of one year left me 4 weeks ago and I am really struggling to cope. We had a tough marriage largely because he did not want to fully commit to me. For the first 2/3rd of our marriage and the two years that we were dating we were living apart from each other in different cities 1.5 hours away. We bought a house and he lived in it for 6 weeks but then suddenly stopped coming home saying thst he wanted to live with his mother. I feel totally bereft. I am still struggling because my mind has flashbacks to all the good times and even the simple times of the relationship like walks thst we'd done together. My brain is picturing all the scenes from our relationship and the roads and it's driving me mad because it's been 4 weeks now. Im still on and off crying every day and hes the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing at night. I dont feel emotionally able to get through the split or to face life without him. Does anyone have any advice as to how to get through this because I just cannot cope at the loss of my life partner the man I thought id grow old with and the man who promised to be at my side.
In addition I keep feeling this overwhelming fear of guilt for everything bad thst I did in the relationship. I just can't seem to move forward from it all and I feel like I let a good man go or because of my own issues I turned a good man into a horrible husband and I feel like karma or the universe or God is punishing me now and making me suffer for all the arguments I had with him. Please does anyone have advice as to what I can do to move forward?