I have been with my husband nearly 9 years, married 1, and he has always really struggled with his mental health (abusive parents) and I have always been the one who has been strong and there to support him, which obviously I have been happy to do.
But recently I had an experience where I was working away for a few weeks and I realised I felt so free from being around him and was able to laugh and have fun and felt like a part of me I didn't know i'd lost was starting to come back, there was also a new collegue who I seemed to have a spark with (no lines crossed) that made me realise that spark has gone with my husband and I don't know if I enjoy being around him anymore as the emotional weight of constantly supporting him has broken me.
We've had lots of long chats are both of us are going to therapy but I am worried I won't ever be able to get the spark in our relationship back or the spark within myself back.
Leaving him isn't something I want to do at all as we can be so good together but leaving also couldn't ever be an option as he has very openly told me throughout our entire relationship i'm the best thing to ever happen to him and he'd be dead without me.
Has anyone else been in a similar situation and did that spark ever come back?