I got married very young to a significantly older man, it wasn’t a healthy dynamic and it took me nearly 10 years to escape. I finally filed for divorce last year, moved out into my own lovely home. I have a child with him and we share custody, I loved my time with my child but also loved my freedom. I started dating, had one fling and then fell hard for someone. He very quickly became everything to me, it was everything I had never had in my marriage: chemistry, passion, similarities, fun. I was completely caught up in it all, unfortunately things happened and I had to walk away. I know it is the right and only decision. I keep telling myself that for all those years in my marriage I longed for this, freedom, my own space, to be single and find someone who I could have a life I deserved with. I’m trying to appreciate exactly what I have, but I feel so lost. I’m not racing back on to the apps, I know I need time to heal and to be at peace in my own life, but I don’t know how. I already have great friends I see a lot of, I already exercise, I already have a great bond with my child and enjoy my time with them, I already love my job. I know my life is good. I know I’m lucky. I’m only 28, I know I’ll find love again, I know I’m a good person, kind, funny, loyal, attractive. I know I bring a lot to the table. I just don’t know how to feel at peace.