Sorry long thread. Need some advice asap. I feel so anxious and confused while writing this. I don’t know how I’ve gotten this far down the rabbit hole and I feel like there is no way out. There’s been many signs I regretfully ignored but things haven’t recently gotten so bad. It started when me and DH were on a date and he started saying he would want us to go to a strip club. I asked him isn’t he Christian (I’m not) and that surely is against his moral code. He somehow flipped it on me and got very angry. He said I should be the last one talking about moral code as I dress in shorts, letting any man see what is his and I’m an embarrassment. It ruined the night. When we was home I tried talking but he got so angry chucking a water bottle at the wall bouncing off me (an escalation from my last thread). I tried getting him out the house but he didn’t leave instead starting crying and says I have no idea what it’s like providing for a family and a SAHM even though he asked me to be one. A week later I told him I want to go to a business conference in London to learn skills. He grew pretty angry saying I don’t have to go there and if I actually was serious about business I’d go on YouTube or could just ask him. He said I don’t respect him because he could help me. This ruined the day again and I tried to go to my moms house but again he gave me the pity party then acted like nothing happened. It’s been escalating. He monitors what I wear, hides money I don’t even know how much we actually have but I’m never involved in any big decision making, criticises me constantly. It drives me nuts always feeling like a bad person and I try so hard to be better but I don’t think it’s me. I’m so confused why I always feel on edge. He says my personality type is the problem. Next he told me his dream life is me being a stay at home mom forever, he goes with his mates and I have to talk to their girlfriends even though he hates every single one of my friends and doesn’t mingle with my family. When I expressed a desire to have my own friends he said quality over quantity and I’d be fake and never have any deep relationships. Im at my wits end. Everyone loves him and no one would believe me if I told him how bad the abuse is. If I got anyone involved everyone would hate me as they see him as some great guy and sometimes he is, but mainly only after we fight and I want to leave. I have tried to tell many people but they all just say we need to go on more dates or need time alone. That’s the last thing I want as he will just tell me what I do wrong. I can’t say anything without fearing that he will get angry and start breaking things or worst. In fact I hide all my searches online and have to clear my phone as he will go through my phone if he suspects I’m doing something. For some reason this behaviour is getting out of control. I’m in no position to leave but I still have tried many times but how angry he gets and his constant manipulation I don’t think it would go down well anyways.