My 45M bf flipped out and it came out of nowhere.
For context, I 32F get up at 4:30 to get ready for work so he can get in the shower for 5:30, well this morning he comes in the bathroom at 5:15 demanding I get out, I said I was almost done and that he usually doesn’t go in until 5:30. He started gaslighting me saying he never told me that and he’s always maintained that he has to be in the shower for 5:15. When I changed shifts I made sure to ask him what time I needed to be out of the bathroom so he could do his thing he expressly said 5:30 because he wakes up at 4 and plays his video games until then. I have adjusted myself to HIS schedule and routine. He’s a recovered addict and has to have routine. I woke up late and didn’t go into the bathroom until 5. Fast forward to the bathroom incident, I told him “all you had to do was ask me to leave or remind me of the 5:15 time” he responds with “first of all I don’t have to do anything” and goes on a tirade, calling me a dummy. He then gets in the shower and proceeds to call me a borage of names (retard and dummy mostly) and tells me to switch back to 3rd shift with all the other (vile names) because I can’t get up early enough. I didn’t bother trying to argue I just simply asked him “do you even like me” and he says “I hate you” …
Hearing that broke me and I instantly started crying, I was shaking, I was a mess all day.
He never apologized.
This convo is me asking why, how pathetic am I.
I know i need to leave but I’ve sank so much into this relationship and now I have nothing.