Would be very grateful for anyone’s opinion or advice around my situation.
I didn’t grow up witnessing any healthy relationships so I really struggle to know what is normal and what isn’t.
I’ve been with my partner 7 years and we have a 2 year old together. We are both very independent headstong people with big egos so have always clashed. However when we are good we are good, we have the same values and enjoy the same type of things. However when it’s bad it’s awful, his temper is 0 to 100 and I am very quick to annoy him through little comments ect (most of the time I don’t mean).
We were discussing separating due to lots of heated quite nasty arguments but I accidentally fell pregnant and here we are.
We have a mortgage and a 2 year old. The relationship isn’t AWFUL - he’s a good dad and does his fair share however the parental and household responsibility load is all on myself.
I just don’t feel happy in the relationship, I know it’s not what I want anymore (maybe even have fell out of love) - there is basically no intimacy, not because of me but him.
But compared to some relationships I think maybe I’ve got it good - this is my first relationships so I really don’t know if the grass would ever be greener?
Eg for tonight he made a mistake by throwing something out, I said he’d made said mistake and he’d have to sort it out himself, he then goes absolutely mad at this slamming doors getting in my face (all while baby is asleep so not witnessing any of it) but it’s just made me think… is it time to leave?
Logistics of leaving are so difficult though, financially, ?where will I live ect ect - I don’t talk to any friend or family about it anymore either. Sorry for the rant, just feeling fed up