Does it count as limerence if it is an ex?
We were together only a handful of times - 7 weekends.
He gave me the honeymoon period.
During the course of one month, a stranger gradually appeared.
My thoroughbred exciting smiling lovely date gradually disappeared.
Until finally, someone I didn’t recognise took over.
The stranger had a different voice, diminished, huffifng and puffing quietly with displeasure about who knows what.
The smiles were gone forever.
There were deep front lines I had not seen before.
The softness and the beauty was gone from his face.
He seemed to change colour, too… like a tan that slowly fades, he also appeared worn and filled with barely concealed ill will for not just me, but for everyone, including, including child relatives.
He appeared to be fed up with the world in general.
Simple tasks were mentioned as though they were an intricately planned expedition to Everest.
The light that was briefly there was gone.
Meeting him file me with inexplicable tightness in my chest and a heavy dark almost rotten massive cloud of deep grey anxiety.
The way he looked at me was indecipherable, I saw him one morning staring at me intently while I slept… I can only liken it to how Sherlock Holmes looked at a particularly tough riddle within a puzzle with perhaps a young wild unpredictable lion inside it.
No one has ever looked at me like that before.
I’m an open book, if anything I’m too outgoing and transparent.
I try to be a decent person and I do not have any skeletons in my closet.
That does not mean there are not things I need to work on, but I let it all hang out and I’m certainly not mysterious as you can tell from my sharing and interactive post.
I began to realise I does not know the people around him, that is because he is constantly thinking of himself and his own needs and how to serve them.
He is not openly nasty, but I realised he was enjoying giving me a semi silent treatment and thinly veiled passive aggressive nagging.
I could he was gazing upon me with hostility, he tried to hide it, but I could feel the waved micro aggressions and the hint of a sort of dark energy.
He think he was preparing me for psychological abuse and the things he Negev me on were my best very small privileges I had which he did no, and I think that dark energy was mostly jealousy, seething, I think those things he focused on about me made him feel inadequate, although they were nothing special and other have it better,
I began to dislike ly him very quickly and jumped ship at light speed. I have blocked him on every single thing.
The point of my post is
Does it count as LIMERENCE if it is an ex?
We were together only a handful of times - 7 weekends.
He made love to me in a way I didn’t dream possible, and I find myself longing for a person I learned to dislike and lost respect for, when I wrongly look at videos of him, he almost makes my skin crawl, yet the overwhelming desire remains.
What has he done to ?
I am so confused and upset with myself, but I cannot help it.
He made love to me like he loved me. He asked me exactly what I like and gave it to me in spades, I lost any inhibitions I had with him. Our bodies fit like two pieces of one whole. He felt it to, we were both shaken and Euphoric.
What the fuck is that?
I want rid of him, he is like a virus that has overtaken my mind and body.
Please, I need some comfort and reassurance and for someone to explain all this to me.