I've had quite a year.
My ex started cheating this time last year, that relationship never worked out, lasted 4 months he came back for 2 months and we were working things out until he cheated again, lied deceived me, made me think I was crazy until finally admitting it all.
Anyway in march he moved into her home with her 3 children, the youngest being 2.5 years old.
Up until march he would still tell me he loved me, kept trying it with me and basically 'dangling' a carrot in my face.
My DC has been around her and her children (see previous posts, he lied about this.)
My ex doesn't financially support his son, he hasn't seen him for 5.5 weeks and today he is coming down to take him out for a few hours.
Earlier this morning, my DC asked to speak to daddy as he knows he's coming. I text my ex saying 'call if you can dc wants to speak to you' my ex called.
Instead of my ex speaking he put the youngest on the phone, I could hear my ex playing with her as she spoke to my son. My son then asked if he could see all of them, and go out with them (phone was on loud speaker) I didn't say a word, my ex then put his new gf on the phone to speak to my son. I sat in my bedroom and shed a tear.
I don't know why I'm feeling like this, all week he has been saying things to try and 'trigger me' I don't rise to them.
I have asked him to only text me regarding matters relating to money, he calls me, he will call me for the smallest thing.
I have set up a new phone purely for him to call my son on.
I thought I was doing better
I just want a massive hug, this is so so hard.
I still love him, I'll never ever tell him that but today I feel so sad.