I'm in my 20s, so more than old enough to have moved out from my parents' house but I haven't. I have a sister with mental health issues and an older brother with autism - both adults who have no interest in moving out. We all contribute financially to the house. My Dad is unemployed (he has been my entire life - he says he's unable to cope with a job). So we are contributing to the bills and he isn't, so it's a bit of an upside down dynamic.
My parents are constantly arguing. Shouting matches. It could start over the smallest thing, like my Mum forgetting to put sugar in my Dad's tea. My Dad is the main problem; he's volatile, emotionally abusive and very immature. I tell them to stop arguing, that there's no need to shout, etc. My sister tells me I should just ignore it, but I've always been brought into my parents' arguments by my Dad, usually when he is trying to get me to be on his 'side', so it's hard for me to ignore it and keep quiet.
I've been through a really difficult time lately. I broke up with my boyfriend and then was made redundant. I've slowly lost all my friends as they've all moved away and started their adult lives. I have a pet dog who is the one and only good thing left in my life, which limits my options for renting. I'm still in probation in my new job, too. My pay is decent but still not enough to live on without a partner.
I honestly hate my life so much. Today there was an argument and I told my parents to stop shouting and my Dad shouted in my face at the top of his voice saying why does he always get blamed for everything, he's done nothing wrong, etc. All I did was ask them to stop shouting as I don't want my siblings to have to listen to it. I feel so trapped and feel like I deserve better than this, yet I seem to have no agency to actually do something about it. I have no support network left in my life, so I rely on my parents and siblings for that even though I know I should really go no contact with my parents, or my Dad at least. We all deserve better than this life, but it's like the rest of the family is less sensitive to the atmosphere or happily buries their head in the sand about it. I fantasise about just getting in my car with my dog and driving to Scotland. I would never act on it but I have suic*dal ideation every single day. I've just had enough of everything.