So low and hopeless

[Jayne40]

my relationship ended a few weeks ago out of nowhere and I’m so shell shocked that I’m in complete mess.

In dont know how I got it so wrong I literally let my final wall down and trusted him and he ended it. I feel lost hurt betrayed and at a loss. I don’t know what I did or didn’t do, one minute we were planning our future and the next it was over.

Hes completely cut me off like I don’t exist and that just makes me feel disregarded like I and what we had was nothing. I dont understand and thats really difficult for me to process and move on. How can someone who one minute speaks/contacts you multiple times a day just disappear like that?

im really embarrassed, i feel humiliated l, I really thought he was my person, i imagined us been together forever and now im lost, and so lonely just breathing feels hard.

im running on empty and i dont know how to go on. I know that sounds dramatic but thats how i feel.

Ah this happened to be over 12 years ago now and I don’t think ill ever fully trust a man again.
we’d only been together 15 months but I was head over heels and it effected me more than even my divorce since then . He love bombed , future faked and then ghosted, I have never had the rug pulled so hard. We also worked in the same building and he quickly got engaged to one of our other colleagues . It was hell
my advice is to take it easy for now. I spent a lot of time in bed watching box sets . Then when you’re up to it make a lot of plans with friends . You will get through it I promise .

Wow this is what happens to me, it’s worst than when my marriage ended cus we were literally in bed laughing and joking and had the best night and now I’m left questioning if it was all fake, cus I could never just end it and walk away from someone I loved like that and he maintained while ending it that he loved me more than I will ever know. That just didn’t make any sense to me…I could never walk away from someone I loved I would find a way together or at least try.

its really traumatised me and made me feel like I can’t go on and do this anymore. I’m so fed up of life been so hard all the dam time. I just want the pain and suffering to stop.