Just over 3 years ago my husband abandoned me. We had been married for 10 years, together for 15. Everything was completely normal and seemingly happy one day, them my whole world imploded the next. He snuck out while I was sleeping. In the morning I woke up to completely empty bank accounts and a text message saying he wanted a divorce. I haven't seen or spoken to him since.
He seemed to turn into a different person literally over night. His behaviour since that day has been despicable and unbelievable. I won't go into it all because it's not really relevant but I have been mistreated awfully. I have been through very dark times but sometimes now I'm starting to see some kind of light at the end of a very long tunnel.
Day to day I go about life more or less okay, although I have significant scars leftover- I don't see how I will ever trust anyone again, for example.
The 'issue', I suppose is that I keep having these dreams about him. They are very intense and I wake up in the morning feeling absolutely crushed all over again. I've just woken up (I'm not in the UK) and I just want to curl up and die. Pathetic I know, but it's how I feel.