So I did it. I told DH I can no longer tolerate his moods, his drinking, not feeling loved and that I want us to separate. I’ve said it numerous times, we’ve been in a cycle where he improves then goes back to his old ways. The drinking has increased again over the last few months, not to the point where he needs help but enough to cause me worry and pain.
he’s been in tears, blaming himself for not working on us and treating me better. He’s begging me to reconsider. I feel terrible, a lot of guilt as I can’t see anyone upset. If I go back on this, I’ll be a mug. I have to push through his sadness as I’m suffering. I’ve posted numerous times and you’ve all said I only have one life….so why do I feel like shit?? I feel like I’ve hurt him when it’s actually the opposite.
he's been texting nice, loving texts but I know it’s to ease his guilt fir not working on our relationship more. Why do I feel bad?!