DP has always been of the pessimistic type. Things worse recently though. He has a really unfulfilling job but no obvious way out. He is off with stress/depression. I have gone with him to see doctor. GP wants to hold off on the anti-depressants for a while to see if things will come good on their own. DP says he wouldn't take them anyway.
He lies about the house all day and is really uncommunicative when I get home. He does manage out once in a while. I am doing almost everything (bills, housework etc) but he snaps at me over things not being perfect. We have had sex once in the past month and he seems really uncomfortable with kissing/cuddling. We argued yesterdays and he said we would be better off apart because of my housekeeping skills... not the first time I have had to hear this... he doesn't take it back but goes back to "normal". I know all this is the depression but I am exhausted. There are glimmers of good.. but I often feel lonely and scared about the future. We were planning on TTC (hence Mumsnet!). That's on hold for who knows how long (not the priority right now).
I don't have much support. DP's family are so lovely but of the "pull yourself together" school. They don't even know he's off and he won't tell anyone. It feels disloyal to talk to friends as he is such a provate person. I have spoken to a couple, but it is snatched conversations and I haven't really been open. I am crying properly for the first time here.
I don't know what I am asking. Just for some support please.