Bad dreams, night sweats, anxiety!

[11Turtle]

Why is it every time I sleep next to or just have been talking to my bf of 10 years I always wake up sweaty and have extremely bad recurring dreams about him. What is this about? Any insight,

I think your subconscious is telling you something. Your dreams are a gateway to your subconscious, and therefor a whole bunch of realisations you haven't been ready to face yet. They seem to be coming in quite strongly.

How long have you had these nightmares about him? What happens in the dreams?

This dream has been occurring for years. Also, in total we been together off and on 10 years. The dreams are about him going back to drugs and also him cheating with someone much younger which is always either a younger sister or one of my old friends. And in the dream he always has no shame and does not care at all and just laughs at me.

Have these things happened in real life?

He is a former heroine addict and he did this intravenously. He currently goes to the methadone clinic in which he has been going for going on 8 years tellin me every year he will be willing to get it all out of his system. Cheating hasn't occurred in real life that I know of. But in my dream I also hear a voice saying they are much younger and easier to manipulate.

So he's a (former-ish) herion addict who you've had an on and off relationship with for 10 years.

Why exactly are you still with him? And I don't mean the idea of him, the picture of him in your head, the person he could be if only he realised his true potential. I mean the real him, the person he's been showing you he is for the past 10 years. Why are you with him? How did your bar get so low?

You are correct, idky I continued to let my self belief what sounded good knowing it won't happen or be true and to top it off we have two boys a 7 and a 2 year old. I can never talk to him without him screaming at me then I go silent and he wants to say oh what's wrong or then expects me to talk about what he wants me to answer. I guess I'm unsure on to go about it when we are both in a god forsaken lease. I can't sleep at night ever.

For your sake and your children, please get yourself away from this man as soon as possible

I can never talk to him without him screaming at me then I go silent and he wants to say oh what's wrong or then expects me to talk about what he wants me to answer.

It's not your dreams you should be analysing but your reality. Contact Women's Aid today. They might be able to give you good advice about your lease too.

This.

Your poor dc.

And you. You all deserve more. But you're the adult, not them, so only you can change things for them.

Fast forward update: he told the kids he would be leaving because mom (me) is ridiculous. Was all talk, he never left anywhere at all. I did contact DV and they provided me with info on filing for a restraining order and that will take time with a court date. I told the landlord he said he would leave so the kids and I could stay here and she said since he didn't do anything physically to me both parties will need to sign the form releasing him from the lease. She emailed it over to both of us and he then texted me saying he is not going to be signing anything. DV also stated they could give us 15 days in a hotel but that would be it. Unsure on how to go about this, perhaps I could apply for another place and when approved just leave not worrying about how any of these bills will be paid or affect my credit since I've already would have landed a new place?