I was living with this guy for two years. The first year and a half we had some arguments but resolved them. He is younger then me and there was alot of interference from his family because of it . They were always saying bad things about me to him because they didnt want us together, because of this he left a couple times but came back. Sex was a non stop from morning to night and anywhere or anyplace inbetween like 3-5 times a day. In fights at first was because he didnt like my friends so i stopped talking to them. We spent every minute together but he started getting weird about me even going to the bathroom if i was in there too long or if after i went to the bathroom if went in the kitchen and started cooking with out telling him because we have a room mate and he always has company so hed go out side the kitchen window and listen to what was going on and always would swer he heard me saying bad things about him and i wasnt. He was jelous i get that but it was kinda flattering because noone had really been like that to me before . I ended up having to stop working for the people i worked for and all things i was suppossed to be doing around the house as my "part" began to suffer because he pretty much demanded all my time. Hed actually told me i never made time for him, and would get angry every time i played games on my phoneb so i stopped. I couldnt just walk up to him and give him a kiss or a hug or even try to cuddle with him because doing these things meant we were goingn to have sex and when it didnt happen he would get extremely mad. In one of the arguments we had he told me all i wanted him around for was sex. It made me lfeel really bad because i really did love him and tried every day to make him feel that way. I was always uying him things or making him things writting him poems or letters. So i backed off a little on the sex just so i could let him see thatl i oved him for more rhen sex. He of coursse started getting mad and accussed me of not wanting him any more because it had been 2days and we hadnt had sex, i explained it was because what he said and he said he didnt really mean that he was just mad. I was so confused. The next morning he kisses me says he loves me and goes to work. He doessnt come home this is in the middle of december he doeesnt call doesnt text and wont answer my calls or text. I didnt know what happened to him He came home on christmas for 20 minutes to open the presents i got for him grab some things and the whole time hes here hes texting and talking on thee phone i got him that he couldnt even talk to me on. He gives me this bs story about how he had to leave because he cant make any money where we live , so yeah were in rural area so he like i need 2 more days babe and ill be home for good i promise .i had no choice so i said ok. He kissed me said i love you and left. 2 days come and go ssame thing hes ghosting me. He calls after new years and says he is coming home but needs gas money and actually has a conversation with me i send him some money he doesnt show he did this 3 more times to me once he said he needed medicine because he was sick and hed be home soon. I sent the money right back to ignoring me every time he gort money. I texted him im not your personal atm dont ask me for money again. He comes to grab some stuff at the end of january, missing my birthday but this time hes here we have sex, well i give him sex and he leaves. End of february he gets arrested on 2 warrents he has and im talking to him through this friend of his because i couldnt set my phone set up, and the jails let you email the prisoners now so i had been emailing him.ihis grandpa was really sick actually on the last of his days and i was missing him and wanted to spend time with him before his sentencing so i find a bail bond that will work with me on his bail its 57,000 but instead of 10% down rhe bondsman lets me pay 1,500 down and 200 dollars a month till the 6,000 is paid for. I sent him a lengthy email telling him that if he didnt want to be with me dont let me take on this debt cause i really cant afford it i was paying a friend back 200 monrh for the down payment as well as the bondsman . His bail gets posted at noon and i get a friend to drive me ro the jail thats 45 minutes from us and we sirt there from 2 in the aafternoon till 11:30 at night and they let him out he hugs and kisses me and im trying to tell him that when we get home he has to call the bond guy and esign the bond papers hes like i need to go over here to go pick up my car can you drop me there and ill be out ar the house in two hours i promise on everything i love he kisses me says ilove you guess what he never shows up now im frantic because the bond guy hasnt got his initial contact and can revoke the bond now leaving mee with a total of 57,000 im oweing if he doesnt sign the papers . I put out calls to everyone and hs grandmother was too. Finally he calls me screaming at me demanding the bondsmans phone number . Hangs up dont hear from him. 2 weeks later he sends me this text saying that he cant be with me right now and hes in theropy and needs to spend 100% od his time without any distracrion on himself and that i fucked him up so bad in the head he just needs to find himself but its not foreever and that he loves me and hang in there. Right after reading it i send a reply no sooner did i hit the send button my face book notification goes off so i go there and theres a picrure of him flipping me off and the notification saying hes been in a relationship with this girl since january im like wtf even though he wasnt here we haddent broke up he kept telling me he was coming home and wanted to work on us. I just dont understand what exactally i did i supported him rhe entire 2 years because he had warrents and couldnt work and never reaally asked him to wiork or clean or cook i did all that but why was it necessary to publically humilliate me after sending me a text that he was still coming back. Ive sat torturing my self because i seriously dont know what it is i did. He told me i make him feel bad about himself when i only ever tried ro make him feel good am i crazy and inadvertantly did something to hurt him i never wanted to hurt him only love him. Im still just wondering wtf and i acrually feel bad for hurting him but all rhe time the 3 months he iigored me and i didnt know if he was in a ditch somewhere or what, that was really hard on me too, still is . so did i really deserve this for making him feel bad and hate himself?