About a year ago I matched with this guy on a dating app and we started to bond so we decided to meet. After a few weeks of talking and having sex, he asked me how i felt about us getting attached to each other because he thought that it would be the normal thing to happen next if we continued like that. I said I was fine with it, he said he was fine with it, but soon I realized that he would never develop any feelings for me, as he would ghost me for days, which would make me fell kinda pissed off. I talked to him about how I felt about him ignoring me, he apologized and said he would be more careful about it, but didnt make any changes. Sometimes he would talk to me all day, other times he would disappear for days... So, I decided to keep my distance, stoped following him on IG, started meeting him way less than before and proceeded to go out on dates with other men. In the meantime, I met one guy that i really liked and ended up having sex with a couple of times. Sadly, the chemistry we have in the bedroom doesnt match the chemistry we have outside of it so we never had sex again, even though we still go out together untill this day (guess we became ''friends''). On the other hand, sex with the first guy is amazing and thats why I was keeping him around. However, after being with him for the last time, 2 months ago, I decided to try and see how it would be if I didnt have this man in my life, so I just blocked him and haven´t spoke with him since. Oh well, now I'm desperate to get la*d and I dont know if I should just swallow my pride and give him a call, take the risk and go out on dates to meet new people (which requires a lot of effort and I'm feeling kinda lazy) or just seat here in desperation and abstinence, for god knows how long....