Name change to keep me hidden
DH and I have been together nearly 19 years married 8, 4 children and another on the way.
When i was pregnant on our third, DH worked a lot, late hours, would play football in the evenings and go out with friends at the weekends ect... hardly ever home. I developed pre natal depression which led to me gambling to try and find some kind of joy after the kids went to bed and i was sat alone. I gambled a lot and always had just enough left in my account so he wouldnt notice.
Anyway, it all came out when baby was around 3 months old. He kicked me out of our home we owned, i moved in with parents for a few weeks, we talked, i did counseling, went to GA and havn't gambled since (that was over 7 years ago)
He has never moved on from this, hold its against me in arguments.
I tend to keep small things from him so not to start an argument. Never anything serious. Over a month ago I kept a small thing from him, nothing major just didnt want an arguement but he found out and flipped his lid, called me so many names, said we were not to speak unless it was about the kids ect...
About two weeks later he asked me never to do it again, gave a hug and asked if we could go to bed together. I agreed, we had sex but the next day nothing had changed, still not speaking.
3 more weeks go past, he texts says we need to get some form of realtionship back and again can we go to bed together. Again i said yes but still he is not speaking to me. He ignores me when he gets home from work. we dont stay in the same room, I go to bed when the kids do.
I cant take the tension anymore, he speaks to me just to complain about somehting and then i just go and cry, I feel so alone and just used for sex at this point.