Hi Everyone
Where to begin..
I've been with my partner for almost 23 years and over the last 6 months he was diagnosed with ADD (it's been obvious for a few years to me) he's been in and out of low mood, motivation issues, task completion issues and generally not in a good place. The hyperfixation with his ADD has been absolutely intense in more recent time. We've gone from building bikes, making caps, opening a coffee shop, selling and sailing the world, selling and living in an RV and the list goes on. He would fixate, study, and spend days or weeks looking into each of these things and none of then came to fruition, which I understand is the ADD. Then last year came a new fixation with Psychedelics. Microdosing mushrooms, trying other things (all psychs) which he is absolutely adamant are the way forward. He was sending me podcasts, constantly talking about it, getting annoyed because my opinion was different. That's all he talked about. He went to see a spiritual medium a few months back, hung off her every word. Joined mushroom whatsapp group and anything they suggest taking, he buys or tries. Couple of weeks ago he ended it with me, fair enough if he isn't happy, but obviously I am hurt, confused and wondering who he is. He said he wants to sell the home (his) and originally buy an RV to live in, which is now a Canal Boat. I still need to live here for now, until I find a new flat for me and the Dog. It's a constant view of him on his phone obsessing over his new life, completely oblivious to anything else. There has been some spiteful jabs at me, but once he realises there is no reaction, he stops. I am just stunned at how someone can flip, clearly in his mind this has been how he feels for some time. It's like I no longer exist, and sometimes I get the feeling he blames me for the things he hasn't done.
Thank you for reading this and any similar experiences would be good to read about xx