So so sad. For 5 years I had a relationship. It wasn't perfect. But I spent half the week with him. We'd go to work. Meet up after. Cook and he'd run me a bath. He'd be in and out the kitchen. We'd laugh and cuddle up for hours. I wanted to be with him forever back then. I'd found my peace. My person. He smoked weed on and off. But it wasn't a big deal for me. But he moved into a different area of town 2 years ago and the friendship circle changed. It started off with him getting top friendly with people he'd buy weed off. Slowly he started to let people stay over without a place to go. We began to only spend time at my place and I gradually never went to his anymore. His behaviour changed. It was secretive. I encouraged him to get support but he was in denial. But it was obvious the more time went on he was slipping into a darker world.
I left him 4 months ago. But he occasionally reached out. He was emotional and sad. Wanted me to help him get sorted. So I started to occasionally see him again. But new names were being mentioned and another new male was spending alot of time with him. He began answering his phone sometimes and he was slurring.
Hes so bad now that he will ignore me all day. Need to end phone calls after I heard people calling in the background. Its like these people come first now. He won't talk to me If they are about.
He called me 2 days ago. He's gone into therapy. He said he'd learned alot and his therapist had helped him understand alot. He said he was determined to be happy and he sounded almost uplifted. I invited him up for a Chinese and a catch up. I really have been so worried about him and we haven't spoke for a while as I needed to step back from the situation. Whilst on the phone arranging a time someone spoke in the background and he had to go. 2 hours later I was calling in frustration. He was an hour late for tea. He ate it. Then was itching to get home. He said he'd call me when he got back. He never called. Yesterday morning I called him a few times. I messaged asking him if he was OK as he hadn't contacted me. I started to feel anxious and worried. I eventually got a response at 4pm today saying he had run out of credit. This makes no sense I've been calling him! He has ignored 7 calls since 4.10pm. I've sent 4 messages too.
I know people won't understand. But I hope some may. I know I've lost him forever. He's gone. How do I get over it. It's heartbreaking watching his fade but also his belief currently is he's got some great friends. But they are all addicts.