Looking for some advice please. I have been in an abusive relationship since July 2024. He shouts and screams at me (because it's 'the only way I listen'), and is a compulsive liar. He messages women behind my back and lies to me, justifying by saying 'I had to hide it because I knew you'd go off on one, like you're doing now.' He lies about absolutely everything and becomes aggressive when confronted. We don't live together.
I have tried to leave many times and block him and don't see him for days at a time. Then I listen to his voice mails ('please stop this', but never an apology or admitting he's done wrong) and unblock him. I constantly check his social media to look for signs he's cheating - I've tried to stop by blocking the pages but it's so hard.
My question is: how do I stop going back? I live alone and have a couple of good friends and my parents as support. When I go back to him, I hide it from everyone as I'm ashamed as they've told me they hate him and my parents would disown me if I go back (I'm 29). I want to stop thinking he will change. I'm in therapy but nothing is helping. Sorry for the long post, would appreciate any advice on leaving for good.