I don’t think my daughter is coming back from university for Easter. She’s not told me yet but she’s invited her sister to stay for the two week school holiday and there is a general avoidance of the subject. We were so close until September and I was so excited when she came home for Christmas but then she was hardly ever home or if she was she was in her room with the door shut playing music. We live in the middle of nowhere and the last bus home is 7pm. She’s having a blast at uni and I can totally understand that she’s so happy to have found her tribe, so I get it, I really do. But we’re down to me initiating every text conversation and they’re getting further apart and she’s always the one that ends them now. She face times her sister daily.
We were so close and now I feel like a needy teenager chasing a disinterested boy and seem have totally forgotten how to be around her ‘normally’ iyswim. I’m over thinking everything and I know for a fact I’d find me annoying if she knew just how much I miss her. It’s been a week since we communicated at all and I’m not sure how it works now. I’m simultaneously scared stiff of pushing her away by being needy and not attentive enough.
I was going to try and address it at Easter but it looks like she’s staying put and she’s already said that as she’s paying rent on her new place from July she will probably get a job over the summer. I thought when she first went that it was only a few weeks each time but now it looks like I might only get the odd weekend and I’m struggling all over again with letting go.