I love my family unit. I love us all spending time together, going on family days out, watching films together, long walks and enjoying a nice meal together. I love chatting to my husband about our children, the funny things they do and say, I still enjoy his company and we chat about our lives and our children’s future. However, I do not love my husband in the way that I should. I do not fancy him anymore and I don’t see a future with him.
I have seen a counsellor and she said not loving my husband is enough of a reason to end it. I feel so much love for my children and for our family as a whole which is why I’ve stayed so long. On good days we are all so close and enjoy each other’s company. But I’m not in love with my husband anymore.
Im planning to leave but feel so much uncertainty and guilt. Despite a lot of behaviours from my husband (in bad times) which has broken down my trust in him and broken down our marriage and my feelings for him.
But my lovely little family I adore and I’m sad that we won’t be a complete unit anymore.