Hey!
so I’m 20 + years into a relationship with a couple teenage kids. Last few years have been hard and our relationship reached a point where I asked them to leave. He agrees he’s been horrible and wants to change but nothing changes so I chucked him out. They went for a week. I fell apart without them which really scared me. They are now back and have made some improvements. Things are still touch and go but we are having a lot of amazing sex and he’s being helpful with home etc. However, in the process I’ve developed a crush on an old school friend. They are a kind of an ex but we are talking back when we were 16 and a very short lived thing. We ended it back then because we decided we didn’t want to ruin our friendship. They live in Australia now, are not married and I haven’t seen them since I was 19. (I’m well into my 40s now). Recently they have been actively reacting to my Facebook posts and more active on their own posts. I get excited when I see they’ve reacted to my posts. I’m sure they are just being a friend and I have no reason to believe anything else. I don’t know how to shift this crush. I’m lost in a day dream about them and find myself dreaming of them at night. I have no intentions to do anything or even the opportunity to act on this and haven’t had much of a conversation with them. I will note about 10 years ago I did have a what if wander about them so I’ve clearly had an attraction since we were teenagers but I seriously want to focus on my marriage and want to make my family work. How do I kick that feeling 🙈