So, I’ve been in a relationship for nearly 30 years, 2 grown up kids, a mortgage and a family business.
We have had some crazy ups and downs over the years. There is an age gap of 10 years and though not huge it’s now very noticeable. I am living with a grumpy old man. I feel stuck. Changing things now would be so hard, we would need to give up the business and get new jobs, I’d need to take on the mortgage myself. It all feels so hard. So, we fight and we make up because it’s easier. I feel suffocated by my life, completely suppressed and unfulfilled. I turned to a male friend that is in a similar situation, that led to more, it was so exciting and refreshing…and wrong I know. Now I’m in love with a man who can’t be with me and living with a man who drains my soul. I can’t tell anyone how I feel. I know I have caused this situation but I’m now a mess. I don’t even know why I’m posting here…I just need to get it out my head.