Finallly left

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After 3 years of fantastic one day and awful the next and the next. This morning I finally said no more and left. I'm numb with shock, occasionall moments of panic at what the future looks like and constantly reminding myself to just get through today.

Please help me stay sane with tips and advice please. I want to survive this

Well done on making the jump. It take a lot of courage to leave. No doubt rethinking everything and doubting yourself at times. That is an entirely normal way to feel just remind yourself each time you doubt it this is a phase and it will pass.

You’ve not put much detail about the type of behaviour you have been experiencing from him but I would suggest you’ve probably been living on egg shells and guessing it’s been abusive. If your not sure have a look at books by Lundy Bancroft (there a links on here to get free access to “why does he do that” or the Women’s Aid website this will give you an idea - he doesn’t need to have done anything physical to you to be classed as abusive.

If you have been in an abusive relationship look into your local Women’s Aid centre the drop in sessions and course they offer will hopefully help you stop returning.