My husband and I have been separated for some time now. He left me and our child, and recently, he filed for divorce. I loved him deeply; he was my first everything. Despite the challenges in our relationship, I truly believed we’d grow old together and share life’s successes. I can honestly say I was a devoted and loving wife.
One of the main issues in our marriage was that I wasn’t working at the time, as I was raising our child. This created tension, and he began to see me as inferior since he was the one providing financially. I also didn’t have a driving license, which further strained things. However, since our separation, I’ve worked hard to rebuild my life. I now have a good job, handle all financial responsibilities, drive, and have achieved a lot.
Despite all this progress, I’m still devastated by the rejection. Even after all this time, I haven’t been able to fully process the separation. I had always hoped for reconciliation and still feel a strong emotional attachment to him. It deeply hurts knowing our child won’t grow up in a traditional family. He now lives far away, and as a result, our child rarely sees him. I also feel guilty, questioning my decision to have a child with someone who ultimately wasn’t the right partner.
We’ve spoken yesterday, and although his last relationship ended months ago and he is single, he’s made it clear that and firm about wanting a divorce. This has left me questioning my self-worth. I know I have so many good qualities, but I still feel unwanted and rejected.
I haven’t tried dating because it doesn’t feel fair to anyone else while I’m still consumed by this pain. I feel suffocated by the heartache and brokenness. Any advice on how to move forward and heal would be greatly appreciated.