Hello
I had my baby a week ago. I've been home 2 days as we had to stay in due to some complications.
My whole pregnancy babies dad / partner was very verbally abusive to me. He called me names & said some things that will stay with me for life.
I did everything alone.
I still have my own house which I'm glad I didn't get rid of due to his behaviour.
I set everything up alone for baby.
My house, my mind, everything.
This week since baby born he's like a new person
Trying to help so much. In all areas. Telling me how amazing I am. How much he loves me. He's a very sorry man.
Anyway I'm extremely sad. I'm aware I've got baby blues. I keep crying uncontrollably but when he's not around I feel much better. ?
Everything nice he does I feel is fake now and don't believe it. I don't want his help.
Is it baby blues or have I got trauma from him I don't know
I feel bad and guilty that I'm potentially breaking up a family here. I have some feelings for him but there's a big block for me. He's amazing with baby. All over him.
I don't know why I'm writing this x