Just keep crying at everything,

[mumblesmummy]

I know most people on here know I've had a fairly rough week with my DP being away having an op, my nana being taken into ICU with pneumonia, my sister having twins at 28 weeks and getting HELLP syndrome and nearly dying, the twins nearly dying, and my auntie having an op yesterday and going into ICU today.

My baby's also due in a few days and I have severe SPD and am panicking I won't be allowed the birthing pool.

However, I'm hoping everyone gets well and all turns out right so I'm being really positive.

BUT, I just can't stop crying at every last little thing. It's ridiculous. I'm constantly comfort eating because I feel so crappy, and then I feel awful for eating too much and being a greedy hog and getting so huge.

My DP has had his first day of feeling ok, so he went to see 2 of his friends and then to his cousin's surprise birthday party which he got me out of thankfully as I feel so crappy. But there's loads of girls there 3 years younger than me and pretty and I know he's not at all swayed or phased by it and everytime I mention it he just says I'm beautiful and they're not. I'd like to have gone so that he hasn't shown up to yet another do without me as it makes me look miserable, and possibly none existant. But I feel sooooooooooooo ugly at the moment. I havn't had my hair done in months and I'd just lost 5 stone before I got preg and now I've put it all back on again and the bottom of my tummy has turned into this weird jellyness, just at the bottom of my bump which everyone says 'Ooo are you sure there's not more than one baby in there' to.

So today I just feel like shit.

Mum's busy all the time with the poorly people, which i totally understand and do not resent in any way at all, but I miss spending time with her.

And I can't drive because of my SPD so can't really go and see my friends or anything.

I'm soooooooooooooo tired as I have low iron and i keep having palpitations, feeling faint and being sick.

It's just one of those days where I want to cry all day long, nothing can cheer me up and I'm just going to bring everyone down who comes into contact with me.

Plus I think baby is fairly imminent as I keep getting twinges alllllllll the time. Which is great because I'm fed up of waiting and just want to cuddle him, but not so good timing because I can't face tidying up and I have a million things to do before baby arrives.

So just a great big whinge from someone who started the day all smiles and giggles... and has ended up like this for no apparent reason.

No need to answer I suppose, I just wanted to get it allllllllll out as everyone here is busy.

Good God that was long, sorry.

Wow, you really have a hell of a week. You poor thing. If you've managed to stay mostly positive then you're obviously a very strong person. Going through a week like that at the end of pregnancy would be more than most people could handle - honestly.

I got a virus when I was at your stage of pregnancy and it made me cry all the time and feel totally overwhelmed. I was so cross as being pregnant was about as much as I could handle and being sick too just seemed so unfair. So compared to me you're a trooper

Don't feel bad for eating too much, cleaning too little, having a cry or whatever makes you feel good right now. Soon your baby will be here and none of that stuff will matter.

Thanks Skid. I know I'm a great big moaner at the moment and taking everything to heart, but just wanted to get it off my chest a little.

The worst thing about scoffing too much is, I cannot find what I actually want to eat. I suspect it's cream cake.

I was such an unbelievable moaner the last few weeks of pregnancy and from what I can tell so were most of the other women on my ante-natal list, certainly that's what a lot of them were saying anyway.

You're emotional, tired, you've been waiting a long time, moving is awkward, everything is harder than usual, and you're tired, and hungry. And that's without any ACTUAL problems to contend with

Mmmmm. Cream cake. I hope you find one.

Aww lovey. You've been through more in the last few weeks than many people experience in a year, I think you're entitled to a good old moan!

For what it's worth, your posts recently give the impression of quite an extraordinary woman - loving, strong and positive. I think I would have gone to pieces long before now if I were in your shoes, so do whatever it takes to be nice to yourself cos you deserve it and much more

Thanks Skid and Cyteen.

I'm so much more positive today. Think I was just having a huge wobble the other day.

xxxx

Hi MM!

Glad to hear you are feeling a bit brighter today.

You have so much to deal with - and you are tired!

I've not got anywhere near as much to deal with as you, but just having to get to work on time, deal with the kids, dog, house, DH - I'm so tired, I fit to burst into tears at the slightest thing!!!!

Can the Dr. give you iron tablets? Mine gave me Ferrous Sulphate caplets and they have helped SOOO much!

YCBS x

The doctor's just started me on the same thing thank God. It's still taking me a bloody hour to get the motivation to get started on house cleaning though lol. I'm sure it'll pass. Hopefully baby will come along in 5 days time and all will be lovely.