I'm so confused right now! Not for the first time do I feel alone, with no one to trust and confide in!
My circumstances are quite specific and I worry that I could be easily identiable from them........
I've been a mum and wife for over a decade I've adapted my life to suit the family and never regretted it, I still don't! Recently things have changed and I've gathered back some of my fierce independence. My husband has no interest in life, happy to stay home all year round and every day. He works and has a hobby but nothing else.
He has no interest in day trips or participating in family activities, days out etc. His disinterest in life with the rest of us seems to increase day by day and I feel a huge disparity between us. This is not the life I signed up for! I want more from life for my children and I!
The idea of leaving him or making a break is explicitly hard but at the same time I do wonder if it would be for the best given his lack lustre demeanor for life. We barely communicate and in fairness talking and communicating and has always lacked, so I am finding it hard to even broach the subject of my feelings. On the odd occasion I attempt a deep and meaningful He shuts down and won't talk just stares off into space. Help! I feel helpless.
I truly thought from life all I wanted was a man to love me and children. I have those things but I'm not happy! Why, is it so difficult?!