Would you of left? Partner texting other girls

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I caught my DP of 4 years texting other girls in a way he definitely shouldn't of been a year ago when we had a one month old baby. In my eyes this is classed as cheating. Not physically though.

I was absolutely distraught and we broke up for 1 week until I gave into his crying and took him back.

A year later my heart aches at the thought of it all. I just seen one of the girls he texted on social media and now I feel sick. Was about to eat dinner but now I don't want to.

Sat comparing myself.

Would you of left? I should of long ago.

One of the girls he was texting he had history with. I feel sick thinking about it tonight, sometimes it just comes back to me and I get upset

Just because you decided to go back then, when super vulnerable with a tiny baby, does not mean you have to stay.
You tried to get past it, you can't. You don't have to you can break up and start over.

For me personally, it would depend.

If I was desperate for a man, I'd probably tolerate all sorts of shit, including that.

If I wasn't desperate, I'd prefer to dump him and be single.

So I guess you have to ask yourself the question.

Sorry this happened OP. Not really a surprise the impact it’s had on you. Devastating thing to happen just as your family unit was just starting out. Have a real soul search to think what it is you need to happen now. If you want to stay and are sure it won’t happen again what do you need him to do? Assurance, apology, affection… just to listen and be kind when you have a wobble (understandable) etc. If he’s not willing or able to help you navigate the impact of the pain he caused you have your answer right there. If he is, and shows up when you tell him how you been suffering then maybe there’s a chance.

My ex was like this. I found Onlyfans, dating sites alongside premium memberships and flirty messages with female colleagues. It never got better with the countless times of breaking up and getting back together again. We eventually moved out to different places and he very quickly announced a new girlfriend. I don't believe they change unless it is for their own good. I would advise saving yourself the hurt and getting it over and done with asap.

Yes I'm sorry I would have left. Doesn't mean you can't now. You're hopefully in a much stronger position now than you were immediately after having your new baby. You'll likely always feel this way if I'm honest and it will just continue to resurface over the years. He showed a complete lack of respect for you after just birthing his child. That's not a man who's deeply in love and committed to you. I hate to sound harsh, but I want you to see you are worth way more than the situation you're in. I could never forgive.